Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Hurting The Ones I Love

As I draw near to the end of my current first draft (wip) Easy Bake Coven my stomach is beginning to clench in fear. This time it is not the idea of others seeing it, while that has and still does haunt me it is different this time. Today will mark the beginning of the last chapter of the story two things are on my mind.

First, I am going to miss these characters terribly. Without a doubt this is the fastest I have ever written a novel. It looks like it will clock in at around 90k in 4ish weeks. That’s nutty. What started as just sitting down to get this idea that had been poking around in my mind for a day or two on paper (because I should be in the middle of editing book two of the Guardian Trilogy: Choices) took a life of its own and told me a story about characters I rather love. So to step away from them while they are still so alive in my head is like moving away from my friends, or at least going on a long vacation.

Second, this is going to be part of a trilogy. I have a vague idea what is going to happen to some of the characters and the closer I get to the ending the closer I get to causing them a new round of pain. Part of me doesn’t want to hurt them, I want them to be happy and have lives filled with love, rainbows, sunshine, fields for frolicking, ice cream, puppies, and Starbucks. Yet, I know what the writer part of my brain will do. It will spend the next two books tearing things apart and putting them back together, however the cracks will still show. My lovely characters will change, innocence will be lost and faith shattered. Nothing will be as it is right now. I cannot protect my characters from their story the best I can do is hope they make it through scarred… not broken.

8 comments:

C.G. Powell said...

Don't you just love it when a book writes its self!!! It is amazing how a character can take on a life of it's own and like a protective parent, no matter what path we lay ahead of them, they will ultamately choose their own path.

Michelle Ferguson said...

Awesome blogging. I think we all fall in love with our characters and hate to kill them, or even maim.

Pamela Mason said...

Yes,I agree. Pain & angst makes you hurt more than them. When you cry because of their pain... that's when it's good.

Elizabeth Sharp said...

This is my biggest problem as an author, doing things that I know will hurt my characters.

Khloë Kamalis said...

I know what you mean. I love the characters in For The Love Of Cyprus but because of the content of the storyline, I had to hurt them in different ways. I pondered for a long time but then realized life is like that pain, hurt, love, sorrow, happiness, etc. It just all comes with the desire to write. If we can elicit emotion from others by their reading our writings then somehow we are doing things right.

Nichole Chase said...

I know how you feel Liz. I am getting to a painful part of my book. It has to happen, but I know it is going to hurt. Hang in there :)

Katrina said...

I like the Starbucks and puppies choice. :-)

Lizzie's Blog said...

Hahaha I bet you do Kat!

I am thinking since I have spoken so much about EBC on the blog I might go ahead and do some chapter one editing so I can at least show a little of what the story will be about.

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